Does Love Exist ?

i don't understand why everyone makes a big deal out of it. like its the best thing that has ever happened to anyone. well maybe is has, but not for me. all these years i see my friends get into a relationship, though i never had a boyfriend,i knew how they feel. i have crushes on so many people and some lasts longer than they should. people say love is amazing. but why so many people get hurt because of something called love? my friends cries when their bf don't listen to them,when their bf don't understand them, stop kissing them,stop.. just stop loving them.it hurts to even like someone. whats worst, it was always one sided for me. i can't deny the fact that it IS indeed a nice feeling to see that someone you feel something for. my heart always beat faster and it makes me so happy and i don't know why. currently i'm waiting for someone call Juz. somehow, the only conversations we have are mostly about our studies. we build a friendship through studying. and feelings, feelings are just feelings. you try so hard to stop yourself from falling for anybody,but next thing you know,you're waiting to see them again. i spent only 2 months with him. never expecting to see him again. and i never did. i don't. its been months. but i miss him still. the last i heard. he was dating someone. we chat online sometime, but, i hate the feeling it gave me. maybe its just infactuation,it happens to everybody anyways. but it hurts to miss someone so much, to think about them,to want them,to feel their presence. and you know what is the worst part? They don't even care. You don't even cross their mind. Not once.. not ever. so what is this amazing thing called love? my friend just broke up with her bf. to him,it was too painful to be in a relationship,to her,no matter how painful it was,she wanted to work things out with him. always wanting to work it out. see what happens? I might still like Juz. i still wait for him,i feel happy when we chat online. but deep down, i don't quite believe in love. i think its just a crap feeling,like booze or drugs,it makes you high for only a short moment. you will be addicted to it. however, when you stop taking it, it hurts. reality just slaps you in the face and in love,it slaps you over and over and over again.